i’m turning 25 on the 1st of April (in 2 days from the date of writing this).

been looking back at the past year of my life and it’s been a wild one.

lost a lot of people that meant a lot to me. some i had no influence on, and some i did.

but to all of them i am incredibly thankful for being blessed with the opportunity to have met them.

i’ve come to the realisation that my entire personality has been fake for the biggest part of my life.

the third of february, 03/02/2025 was the day my life would change. i just didn’t know it at the time. and i will be forever grateful.

i needed a catalyst, i needed a reminder there’s more to life than what i always made myself believe.

today is the day i will stop running.

i’m sorry to everyone i’ve done wrong, i’m sorry for all the lies, the persona i’ve let myself out to be.

i’m sorry for every message i’ve never replied to, to every memo i’ve missed or just straight up ignored.

i’m sorry for not being the person you needed.

i’m nothing but an empty shell currently. i will find myself.

i’ll blossom.

i will make myself proud.

journey 2 the sun.

and i’ll get there.